So here is the deal.  I am really sorry for being really stand-offish and a dick to most of you adn will be for anohter week, but my grandma died this past week and it has really really really shaken me.  I don't feel the same as i did before she died.  I guess it is because it was so sudden adn i always thought she would live forever.  For now i am just going to put on a happy face and just try and make it through everything my teachers throw at.  mrs. wolfe doesn't get back for another week and i am about to kill myself because i miss her so much.  I know that is really creepy but being her aide for the entire year i have gotten really tight with her, and the math sub is really really creepy and i don't like him.  I am going up to see allie in two weeks and i am going to her winter formal and it will be crazy awesome.  I am so ready to get out of lawrence just for a little bit.  Well i feel somewhat better but i have no idea what tomorrow is going to bring.  My sister is going back to school tomorrow and i don't know how my mom is going to handle it, but i will get through.  Finally i wanted to say thank you for everyone who has been really cool about me losing my grandma it really does mean a lot to me.  Well i am off i hope everyone has a good day tomorrow and a great week, and i hope to talk to you later.

John

Currently Watching Bob Dylan - No Direction Home By Bob Dylan, Martin Scorsese see related

It has been almost a month and i figure now is the best time to update.  Well a lot has been going on lately.  Band stuff, work stuff, not much time for friend stuff, and school stuff; but other than that my life has been boring.

I made 2nd to last chair concert band this year a new low, which is exciting and i thought i was going to care but i don't.  I am sitting next to emily and dana, i am close to amanda, andrew ashley is right behind me, jordan is abotu 5 chairs down from me and i can see most every trumpet and percussionist in the room, which means hilarious eye sex with a lot of people and they get to see me dance and rock out while i have 30 measures of rest.  Ben is joing last chair at semester and not going to move up and it should be ossum.

Work for a while was really shitty because they were treating me like shit, but Joaquin said something and they have gotten so much better.  Work is ossum everyone should come in to say hi i work on Mondays, Thursdays and Saturdays from 5:30-close except this saturday cause i might still be at band. 

I love my senior year because i don't do anything the only class i have homework in is math and i don't mind doing math homework because it is ossum.  I am going to try and find a long weekend where i can go up and spend it with elizabeth and her friends at m-dubb.  I think that is a really good idea don't you?

So that will get you pretty much caught up for now and i will write sooner!!

John

P.S.  Mello shindig this friday night at 8 at my house i can't wait it is going to be a blast

Currently Listening Kasabian By Kasabian L.S.F. see related